Torn Between Passions

" I cannot graduate if I don't finish my 14-month internship in a restaurant. I've only finished a month but there are so many problems and hate-vibe from my coworkers that I want to quit. Not that it's my main reason. My main reason being I want to pursue art (have yet started) and hopefully earn a living with it. The thing is in order to stay in Taiwan I need to graduate, and in order to graduate i need to work as internship in the alluded restaurant. I don't want to work internship in the restaurant, but without that I cannot graduate, which means I cannot stay in Taiwan and have to go back to my own country (Indonesia). I highly feel I should quit and just do part time teaching but again, u cannot graduate if I severe my contract, and my family kinda want me to graduate. I don't know what to do"

    Such is the letter I sent to my non-human correspondent partner, ChatGPT. I'm still conflicted since the answer reply is for me to gather myself together, the same responds anyone else in my family, and some of my friends and professors would tell me to do. I am no quitter for things that I deem sensible to my goals and sanity, or happiness, but deep down I know I'd be happier if I could just be free for these whole 2 years in Taiwan, jeopardizing of course my lawful right to stay in the country. However that was my plan in the first place: to enjoy my remaining time overseas pursuing what I want to pursue, not being tied down by working minimum wages in fields that I will never bring myself to like, and when I know deep down it is not the field I want to do in the future, it just pains me to the core, every second working, paid hourly. Other factors I did not yet include, including work bureaucracies, work hour sabotage (work is at 10, but in order to be ready before services, I'd involuntarily voluntarily come at 9 due to pressure from supervisors, who have higher wages, giving them a higher stake to be more dedicated to work), and hypocrisy of many people with no skills but blue collar, and the fact that the culture and company guidelines encourage rewards to workers who vet out other workers doing things detrimental to company's profit. The latter is more of the moral issue of individuals, but let's say I'd prefer coworkers who would vouch for each other more than they do on company's already massive profits. This is wishful thinking, I know. Shame the people living in this world lives on "survival of the fittest" ideology. It's not my non-right to hate such primal phenomenon, though, albeit this self-entitlement will kill me as a living being, no matter what my thought preferrence is.

My family is used to me quitting tough curricular situations, and they would just tell me to suck it up and not be a pussy, my professors (dean) have given me multiple chances of graduating; quitting this internship would be my second, which is 200% more than other classmates, so they may start fuming as a result which I don't care, and my friends are too young to know any better, or myself deeply. Only the former is my concern, to be honest, without the shaming part, but I don't want to disappoint these birth givers.

I don't know what to do.

I just hope I win a huge lump sum of tax-free lottery that can last me at least 5 years eating al fresco decently and not worry about hunger, either that or I find my own style of reliable money-accumulation, as soon as possible.

I'm typing with Vincent's laptop, a Google Pixel software engineer.