"Defying Expectations: A Journey of Self-Discovery and Defiance"
Certainly, here's the entry based on the points you provided:
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| She is too stunned to speak |
Today marks a significant departure from my usual routine. For the first time in a long while, I find myself compelled to put pen to paper, expressing my thoughts and frustrations without the aid of artificial intelligence. It's a daunting prospect, but one that feels necessary as I grapple with a myriad of conflicting emotions and societal expectations.
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| These guys from US and France. Merde, is my favorite word. I remember the parody song of Belle Screen Junkies. "Bonjour bonjour... acting like his merde doesn't smell" So funny XD XD XD |
Lately, I've been wrestling with a long-standing dilemma that seems to weigh heavier on my mind with each passing day. The pressure to graduate from college, echoed by my dean, family, and friends, feels suffocating at times. Their well-intentioned advice falls on deaf ears as I struggle to reconcile their expectations with my own desires.
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| Investor Meeting. Talked about trading and crypto. |
The crux of the matter lies in the relentless insistence that I must endure tasks I despise for the sake of a piece of paper. My refusal to conform to this notion stems from a deeply held belief that life is too short to spend it doing things that bring no joy. Yet, this sentiment is often met with dismissive retorts, urging me to "suck it up" and soldier on.
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| Dinner with Mormons. Food unrelated to the teaching. |
Let's address these arguments head-on. Firstly, the notion that enduring one year of misery is a small price to pay for a brighter future is fundamentally flawed. I've seen firsthand the tragic consequences of sacrificing one's happiness for the illusion of security. My Vietnamese classmate, may he rest in peace, toiled tirelessly for a future he would never get to enjoy. His untimely demise serves as a stark reminder that the pursuit of happiness should never come at the expense of one's well-being.
Secondly, the belief that a degree is the key to unlocking job opportunities is misguided. I refuse to subject myself to soul-crushing work simply because society deems it necessary for success. I have no intention of working under anyone's thumb, preferring instead to chart my own course and define my own success.
As for the argument that a degree is necessary for staying in Taiwan, I have no desire to remain here unless it serves my greater purpose. My father's dream of settling here holds little sway over my own aspirations for freedom and fulfillment.
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| Night before. Beef soup dinner |
Finally, the notion that I must resign myself to tasks I dislike is both patronizing and defeatist. There's nothing wrong with pursuing work that aligns with my passions and interests. If anything, it's a testament to my refusal to settle for mediocrity in pursuit of societal norms.
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| Subway Salad Dinner as I typed |
To those who doubt my unconventional path to success, I say this: watch me. I refuse to be confined by outdated notions of success and will forge my own path, one that prioritizes happiness and fulfillment above all else. And to those who insist I must "suck it up," I have only one thing to say: no, thank you.
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| I feel like owning the place when it's only me |
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1. I usually dont write on my own; now I write on my own without the help of AI (make it seems as if I am the one who really came up with the writings)
2. I recently had this thought. No. I have had this thought for a fucking long time. My dean, my family, my friends, my parents, especially my mother, but I dont blame hre, told me to graduate. They said it's good. blablabla. I don't see the point. The point I want to refute is the following. Everyone else here had the notion that I need to do what I don't like. My dean particularly is the only one who told this directly to me, but I know everyone else is hinting the same point: that I have to sometimes do the things I dislike to do. Even AI (you) is giving me this hint when I asked you in another chat, if I were not wrong. (If I were wrong, I deeply apologized and thank you for always helping me write blogs.)If you had been reading my blogs, you must have known my dilemma of not graduating because I don't want to do my 14 months internship in a restaurant, the thing I know I hate and dislike at least.
Their arguments would be:
"1. it's only one year; one year passes in a blink of an eye",
"2. without a degree you will find job harder, land job harder",
"3. you won't be able to stay in Taiwan as easy as those with degrees",
"4. suck it up, don't think you're the only one in the world who don't want to work".
I will address, in a refuting manner, all of the points stipulated above as I deem disagreeing. Number 1. My Vietnamese classmate died. Yes you heard me right. He worked hard day and night. Is it something he enjoyed? No. Yes maybe, for the money. Did he get top spend it? Maybe, if heaven exists and money works differently in that realm, but joking aside. There's no future for him after the blink of that eye (although it was not even a year). What is , then, the point of working so hard for something you don't like, even if it is just for one year? Survival? Money? In my current case, I am surviving just fine. I don't even have to work for a good two months and I and I can still live off comfortably. Six months maybe if I want to be frugal. But that's missing the point. Money? My current teaching gig is only 20 minutes per session, paying twice the hourly rate of that in service industry minimum wage (in which we have to accomplish our internships, which I opted out o). So in short term my sirvival and money is kind of guaranteed. They may argue "how about my long term?". In which I would go back to my Vietnamese classmate, "would his hardwork working in minimum wage ever let him enjoy all the fruits in the future, get him into prestigious colleges? Get him into big companies like Google? Let him bathe in truffle while he smoke a grade 5 Wagyu made cigar doused in freshmade white truffle oil mixed with premium sturgeon caviar? (I don't know how luxury can be so I'm just assuming this is what the millionaires do, just like an AI's answer" The answer to all above is No. HE IS DEAD. He died one day riding a motorbike home from work trying not to miss the dormitory curfew after he had a busy, albeit paid overtime. For what price? His life is worth the money, or the internship certificate, or whatever capitalist games he was playing? I don't think so. I'm repeating points a lot here but you get mey idea!
Second point I want to refute is without a degree, you will find job harder, land job harder. Meaning you may get a shit job with shit employers. Omit the shit jobs; I never want to work under anyone, maybe not anyone but mostly I don't want to work if there is a feeling of hierarchy. I simply don't like it. Wait. This is what everyone had to say about me sometimes having to do things I don't like, which I will talk about in the later point. For now, my stance is that I simply find it too risky to rely on others for my work motivation and moods. When I perform badly it is on me, and when I have great ideas it should be because I try and succeed, lucky or not, and it cetainly should not be channeled to any other entities or some burreaucratic team leaders who end up with performance-satisfactory promotion. Heck even the sound of promotion renders me nauseaous. What are we promoting ourselves for? Superhuman while others are just humans? Why managing people is more valued than the people who do labour work itself? It sounds like I'm a socialist, but trust me I'm not. In summary, I don't have a plan on working under any entity or sub-bosses in the future. People will pay me, because I am needed in this world and my value is valuable for others. If not then let me starve to death for my inertia and dormancy. I don't need a degree to not be accepted by any companies in this capitalist world.
Third one is regarding my staying in Taiwan. I have no intention to stay in Taiwan unless it's necessary for my freedom. I will work anywhere everywhere while it's ideal. Only my father wants to live here so badly. It is certainly nice if I could make his dream come true. I want it so badly, but not as bad as I want my time freedom goals.
Last one would be regarding a lazy mindset of not wanting to work. Firstly let's get this misconception as straightened as possible. It's not that I do not want to work, "like anybody else", "who would like working anyway" kind of idea. I want to work, but on my own terms, on my own leisures, and I can choose my whereabouts. If I want to stay at home to work, I should be allowed to. And as much as there's nothing wrong with the statement "you have to sometimes do the things you don't like to do", there also shouldn't be anything wrong, in my opinion, with doing what you only like. Seriously what is wrong with that? It's not like someone will get hurt by me doing things I like which doesn't involve crimes. It's not like not doing things I like will make this world a better place. Worst of all in this analogy, that it is not that the world/kingdom/country will collapse if I refuse to work in a restaurant in an internship to get a degree; a degree I don't ever plan to make use of but to show the world the I had worked so hard in college. It's a sick lie, and a very helpful one for those who earn it my way. We came to classes that burn time with Youtube videos and exams comprising writing your opinions about the videos. In my major it's a piece of knowledge about formality. How a university business works. How attendance and KPI ensure school credibility. How THAT, maintains business and next gens of cashflow, and how all THAT remits the professors' paychecks. The professor has never owned or started any bussinesses, but is immensely knowledgable about SWOT and 7Ps of business (People, Price, Product, etc). There was one professor who was a professional freelance auditor, health inspector, and she has a lot to offer and I like it. There was a professor with realtor bussiness. Again nothing is wrong with dilligently attending the courses you like, or doing things you don't like. However, nothing should be not-wrong too if you were to choose not to do the things you don't like. Why would it be? It is not rethorical. I'm asking you, why would it be wrong not doing things you don't like? It gets absurd real quickly isn't it?
People died before they get to enjoy the fruits of their work (my classmate, those dies in accidents, those got killed by foulplays). If I am not harming anyone; not evem myself; why are you assuming the worst for my futures when I only enjoy doing what I do at the moment?
To: those who ever doubt my success outside the "normal" way of college degree, including my family, brother, friends, non-existent lover, and sometimes myself. Seriously f*ck you Stevie! I'm trying so hard for our well being here!
I WILL GET THERE. If you really care, JUST WAIT AND SEE, and maybe some money to invest would be nice please; my earnings are slowing down and trading is hard with a low amount of extra cash.
Fourth point is just mean. What do you mean by sycking it up? 🥲
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