Running Out of Time: A Race Against Responsibilities

 I haven’t written a journal entry in what feels like forever—I don’t even remember the last time I did. Life has been a bit of a whirlwind lately. Since early September, I started teaching at Zhangxing School, and while it seemed like a good side gig at first, I’m already feeling the weight of the schedules and timetables being imposed on me. Teaching, even part-time, isn’t aligning with what I want anymore, especially with the way my freedom feels restricted.

Now, my university is chasing me for the tuition I still owe. If I don’t pay it soon, they’ll terminate my student status, which means I’ll lose my legal residency in Taiwan. That would be a disaster. So, I’m desperately looking for other ways to make money. The pressure is suffocating. I’ve been thinking about creating a SaaS product to sell as an app or website service. I’ve heard how scalable these types of businesses can be and how they could potentially generate far more income than the traditional route of trading hours for dollars. The idea that I could build something once and have it pay off long-term sounds like the escape I’ve been searching for.

At Daiyi Night Market Pondering Over Life Difficulties

I’m sick of dealing with money problems. There are things I want, like a new Samsung phone and the Galaxy Watch Ultra—I think they’re pretty cool. But I can’t even think about luxuries like that when I’m stressing over tuition debts and the fact that I have to cycle to work when I don’t even feel like it. It’s exhausting. These problems seem solvable, but only if I can get a successful business going, or at least create something that brings in passive income. I keep thinking about how much I want to give back to my parents, too. They’re getting older, and they don’t have any income now. It feels like the weight of all these responsibilities is just crushing me.

Game of Conquering Taiwan with Students

God, help me. AI, help me. I don’t want to be stuck in this cycle forever. I want to start living again, really living, before I get too old to do the things I dream of. Time feels like it’s running out, and I just want to find a way to make all of this work.

By the way, I would like to inform you that I am currently experiencing significant discomfort in my eyes.

PS. I gave my brother Kenny the chance to advise me on whether to start with Bubble or Flutterflow (easily researchable, by the way). It wasn’t a tough decision, I’m obviously going with Flutterflow. But I wanted to give him the credit, you know, let him claim he mentored me in my early stages of entrepreneurship. He missed the chance at some partial fame by ignoring me though.