What Friendship and Non-friendship Do

What friendship and non friendship do.
Some people may inquire. What is the meaning of friends? Why are we so attached to social ties that we sometimes forgot about who our real friends is, our moms? I would myself formulate a question to sum it all: why ask me?

The thing is, I was sexually attracted to this Vietnamese girl. She was pretty, she knows her stuff, and she is mature way beyond her age, but most importantly, she is pretty. Seriously, there is nothing else nor any other ways to describe this affection. It is simply the urge for mating, the mankind's pursuit of instinctive pleasure. It means nothing, and dwindles as time goes by.

Underlying the big topic of friendship, it is simply survival without sex. When you hacve friends you have a thick fog of security and shelter from the preying of the nature selection. Life itself is like a giant ball of ooze monster which randomly picks on unsuspecting mammals we called humans. There is also a notion that survival dwells within herds. It is only true for mammals who need to scavenge for food. Wolves, hynas, tax officers, and pianists. Other than those four, we are unattached from the principle of life amongst group. School for fish, college for humans. Yet, why do most of us cannot help but feel lonely when there is no companion in life. Again, I am not a certified psychiatrist, and cannot answer your damn question, which is practically mine, which is technically my formulated rhetorical question.

There was a girl I found penchant on. Sexually. No other reasons, and I got attached deeply, blinded by the pseudo love and damn dopamine. To be human is to know oneself; wuote from the Self. The 'I' that we proudly broadcast to the universe is a delusion; a sordid-built container that segregated and bewilder us. We tend to stick to identity and labeling for those of you in the field of marketing. Howwever, all those are mere illusions, that which makes one feel so comforted beyond the chaotic, cruel, horrendous, sexy, and beautiful world. Even if there are many discrepancies in this world, life is still as pulchritudinous a maiden as it is. One should never, call his mom 'fat bitch'.

Today I learn to integrate myself into a community, a society where all the pseudo-safety exist, where all the miracles of lifelong respite and relish from depression exisrt. What do I mean by that?

Forth is about the cooking class I did today. Sushi is a Japanese food from Eastern Asian; Southeast Asian to be exact. However, the lack of facility and (possibly) nonchalance of higher knowledge (which cannot be blamed in this state of epidemic) results in a lower satisfactory grade in learning satisfaction. Okay, skip this paragraph.

I feel so happy but that is none of your business. I was crying sad, being lachrymous just yesterday but care you will not. Nobody will anyway. It is pessimistic thought, not. Neither is it a positive one. It is simply life, and the flow of life is absolute and invincible. One cannot simply defy the nature of life. Follow the flow and sink like a dead fish, for the bottom of the rivere is some sort of substance which cause death fish to have the ultimate orgasmic afterlife, the one way better than during its life. He did not even know it existed before when he was alive and without the puncture hole of the damn fisherman's stick